| 017 ♥♥ You can have whatever you'd like. |
[Jan. 10th, 2010|05:02 pm] |
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I'm so upset right now... I'm not sure if I just update this t bitch and vent, or if it's only bad that's happened to me for about a year now. I miss my grandpa. We finished moving all of his stuff out of the old apartment. It's done... And he's gone and I don't know if I can handle that very well. I miss him so much. I'd love nothing more than a great big grandpa hug from my number one but it's not possible... His remains are nothing more then ashes. The only things that are left of him are memories that I plan to carry for the rest of my life.
It pissed me off, because when we were moving his stuff, other residents from the apartment were pushing us out of the way to get into his apartment and claim all of his valuables as there own, when it's not. It was his, and that's the only thing we have left of him... Have a little decency, my grandfather just passed away and your pushing his family aside to get to all of his stuff. That's inhumane... Words can't even express. They could barely speak English, we had to lock every door to keep them out, I kid you not. We had some of his stuff in the back of the truck, and there was a lady that was getting in my face about that stuff. FUCK OFF. YOU DIDN'T LOVE HIM. YOU DON'T DESERVE HIS THINGS. At least wait until we've left to be greedy little pigs. It was a rough day, one that will haunt me for quite a while.
Another thing that bugs me, and I'm sure this is going to sound selfish to everyone but I need to get this off my chest and start to feel better about it. My mom gets my grandfathers big, HUGE screen tv... And gives Danica the one from in the living room... Meanwhile the one that's in my mom's room is mine. She broke it... and now I can't use it, because my room doesn't have cable, and the plug-ins that we use for the DVD player my mom broke... So the tv is useless to me, so I tell my mom to keep it cause she has cable in her room. Why should Danica get the big screen? Why? She's never home. My mom has lived here coming on two months, and Danica has been home to sleep maybe three times. I'm always at home... She knows I need a tv.. But no, I was nice enough to lend my mom mine, she breaks it, and gives the living room tv to my sister. Thanks mom! That's awesome. The one thing I wanted of Grandpa's was something he made... And I wasn't even aloud that until I put up a fuss about it. Why? Danica gets his guitar. Why can't I have something that's full of memories... And had value to my grandpa? I'm just hurt. I miss him. I've slept an hour... That's all. I'm running off no sleep. I miss him and maybe I'm being a little selfish right now. |
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